emoing...

this few days i think have many friends dislike or even hate me bar...
cz even myself, i oso dun lik d attitude lik me tiz whole week..
duno y..
i start to lose myself..
cannot control my mood n temper..
i duno what d stupid things tat i think of..
what should i do..
when i c sumthing tat i feel hurt n sad..
my temper becum even worse..
i had try to let myself to cool down..
bt.. USELESS!!!
after awhile.. tat feeling cum back again..
I HATE MYSELF!!!

tiz few week try to ponteng..
cz dun wan face d ppl in sch..
NOT... not dun wan...
is LAZY n feel BORED ady..
ppl had let me lose confidence on myself n towards to frens..

my frens always said:
"ah min, y u always 'xiong ba ba', 'cha bei bei'?"
i noe u al jz kidding...
n vry FUNNY rite?
bt..
have u al think bout my feeling after u al saying tiz?
kidding oso gt limit wat...
sumtime kiddin is ok lar...
if everyday...???
i'm nt fierce oso..
jz.. sumtime really tired n lazy to smile..
i wan say..
i really HATE tiz nickname..
have u al think of tiz?
NO!!!
4gt it..
i dun wan say out..
cz scare wil break our frenship..

y'day..
sumbody say:
"u talk to her lar... she treat u better.."
haiz...
wat i can say jz..
SORRY..
after heard u saying tiz...
my heart feel pain oso...
y i wil bcum lik tiz?
stupid lar me...
IDIOT!!!

sry to my frens.. (especially my classmate)
my attitude make u all worry n angry..
i wil try to change tiz bad attitude..
bt.. gv me time...
i nid time to think sumthing..
to think clearly..
d things wic had hurt me..
i nid time to cover my mud...
bt dun worry..
i'm all right..
SORRY...